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it me taylor

hi everyone
it me taylor
i be feling sad
i not sure why
my hart jus hurts
i fink it cuz i had nitemares
about my grandad
hes dead now
and i miss him
i wanted to tok to dr barry yeserday
but ther wasnt time
that maked me sad to
i lik dr barry
shes alwas nise to me
actuly shes nise to all us kids alwas
i hav a buny rabit that i snugle wif
her nam is nibbles
shes soft and has long ears
later today mabe i wil make a video
and i can post it here
if people want to see me and my buny rabit
wat do you fink
is dat a gud idea

taylor six


So I think I mentioned that our aunt and uncle are here from the UK. Its our dads sister. She’s 72 years old, and I think after what happened today, I’ll be glad when she goes home. Heres how it went.
My aunt: Where are you going?
Me: To therapy.
My aunt: Therapy? What for?
Me: To deal with my past.
My aunt: What does your therapist talk to you about? Does she talk to you about what happened in Dublin?
Me: I dont want to talk about it.
My aunt: Come on, whats therapy about?
Me: We talk about a lot, not just what happened in dublin.
My aunt: But there’s nothing wrong with you. Its all in your head.
Me: Silence.
My aunt: Well? There’s nothing wrong with you, your wasting your time going there.
Me: Silence again but almost crying.
Then my dad butted in to tell her to shut up and leave me be. That was a shock. I never thought he’d back me up but he did. Thank you dad.
Then I went to therapy, almost crying all the way there. Thank god for my therapist.
When I got home my aunt tried to find out what happened in therapy but I didnt tell her. I am talking to her again now, but I am still very upset with her.

Carol anne

Depressed and hopeless

I feel depressed. Its always in the middle of the night that things become hard. When everyone is sleeping and it feels as if I am the only one up. I know I’m probably not, but it sure starts to feel like it when its dark outside, and there is no sound. I’ve been trying to take comfort from Nitro, dogs are great for comforting you when your sad. The sadness is weighing heavily throughout my body tonight. I can feel my chest tighten, and my eyes stinging with uncried tears. I feel very down but I cant put my finger on exactly why I feel the way I do. I know for the past week or so the memories and flashbacks have been very intense. Its not a nice feeling at all. It leaves me quite upset, and apprehensive, and the flashbacks leave my body trembling and leave me gasping for breath. I tried talking to Dr Barry about them today. She did get it somewhat. She asked me if they were linked to the anxiety of getting out of the hospital and being back in our own home again. But I cant say they were. I am really not sure why this wave of flashbacks have hit us now, other than fall is coming. Fall is always a difficult time of year for us due to us being a cult survivor. All I want is for the depression to lift, I’m sure it will by morning. If the night would hurry up and go by quickly.
Carol anne