Tag Archives: Ritual abuse

good article on Ritual abuse, mind control, and programming

Here is an excellent article on ritual abuse and mind control. A heads up, this is a very triggery article for survivors so be careful when reading it. I think it describes the phenomena very well and it is a great read. There arent a lot of very good articles out there that do justice to this awful subject but this one does.

http://endritualabuse.org/about/mind-control-simple-to-complex/

Fakers fucking piss me off!

I’M FUMING. I COULD KILL SOMEONE RIGHT NOW, LITERALLY. I KNOW WHO THAT SOMEONE IS. A PERSON WHO NOT ONLY FAKES DID, BUT IS NOW FAKING RITUAL ABUSE TOO. THIS PERSON I’VE KNOWN ONLINE FOR YEARS. THEY’RE NOTHING BUT TROUBLE. AND I’VE HAD ENOUGH. I’M DONE. THEY WERE A PART OF MY DID EMAIL SUPPORT GROUP. I ALLOWED THEM ON IT THINKING THEY’D CHANGE. YES I GAVE THEM A CHANCE BECAUSE I THOUGHT THEY ARE DESERVING OF ONE. THEY HAD BEEN THROWN OFF A LOT OF GROUPS FOR FAKING DID AND FAKING OTHER ASPECTS OF MENTAL ILLNESS. NOW NOT ONLY ARE THEY DOING THAT BUT THEY ARE FAKING RITUAL ABUSE TOO. EVERY TIME THEY WRITE AN EMAIL THEY SAY MORE AND MORE THINGS THAT ARE GRAPHIC AND EACH NEW EMAIL HAS MORE IN IT THAN THE LAST. THEY ARE LITERALLY TAKING PEOPLE ON MY GROUPS STORIES AS THEIR OWN. INCLUDING OUR STORY WHICH IS DESPICABLE! I CANNOT BELIEVE SOMEONE WOULD DO SUCH A THING. ITS CRAZY! I’VE SPENT THE LAST HOUR RAGING AND SO ANGRY AND WANTING TO THROW SOMETHING OR HIT SOMEONE PREFERABLY THIS PERSON. THIS KINDA THING IS UNCALLED FOR. I KNOW WITH ONLINE PEOPLE YOU CAN NEVER REALLY TELL WHATS TRUE AND WHAT ISNT BECAUSE YOU HAVENT MET THE PERSON AND YOU ONLY KNOW WHAT THEY SHARE. AN EXAMPLE OF THIS PERSONS WILD STORIES IS TONIGHT THEY SAID THEY WERE BORN IN A CAR CRASH. AND ALL OF A SUDDEN THEY HAVE NUMBER PROGRAMMING AFTER CLAIMING FOR YEARS THEY WERENT RITUAL ABUSE SURVIVORS AT ALL. I’VE HAD IT WITH THEM. I REMOVED THEM FROM MY EMAIL LIST. NO MORE CRAZINESS AND FABRICATED STORIES! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! THEY CAN PRETEND SOMEWHERE ELSE. I’M DONE WITH THEIR BULLSHIT. COMPLETELY DONE AND NOT GOING THERE ANYMORE. BY BYE, FAKERS!

Summer solstace, triggers me!

june 21 is the summer solstace. it triggers me. it reminds me of so much bad stuff. so not only was it fathers day, but it was summer solstace too. double wammy. we tried to stay busy. i stayed inside a lot, i didnt come out much. not even when our niece and nephew came over. i was too sad and too scared. i hate days when i am real scared, and triggered, and there are tons of reminders of the abuse and of my past. ritual dates are the worst.
allie age 9

allie’s thoughts on fathers day

its fathers day and im sad. it triggers me. i remember a lot of abuse on that day for lots of years. not from our bio dad. but from the people in dublin. in the cult. its so scary and i dont think i like today. i just want today to be over. all of our family are celebrating it and we are trying to as well. im not being out a lot because i dont like the reminders of my past. im just trying to stay inside, safe, and away from all the triggers.
allie age 9

30 days of dissociative identity disorder-day one

Day One: Describe your system. What kind of system, how big, anything you feel is a good introduction.

Our system is large. Very large. We’re a polyfragmented did system. Basically, the short version of that is, we’re over 100 insiders. But in fact our system is very large indeed. We’re a trauma based multiple. There are many people in our system of many ages, with many likes and dislikes. We have people inside of all ethnicities, black, white, hispanic, you name it, we have it. Boys, girls, even animals, and angels…We are a ritual abuse survivor so that kinda complicates things somewhat. Some insiders are programmed, this was part of our abuse. If you’d like to know more, just ask?