So my beloved partner is going through a really rough time right now. I am very stressed out and worried about her. Thought I’d write here to let it out.
Each day I miss you
Each hour and minute
Our long conversations
Our text messages
That say everything and nothing
But we didnt care what they said
We were just happy to hear from one another
And now I can hardly talk to you
10 or 15 minutes max
And I want to help you but I cant
Oh how I wish I could do something
Anything to take this tough time away
If I could I would move mountains for you
I would gladly switch places
But I know thats not what you’d want for me
Be strong, be brave
This too shall pass
And soon we will be back to normal
Our normal that is sometimes crazy
But I always loved the crazy bits
Its what made us unique
This is a song that I love right now. It reminds me of my love for my partner. She’s not well right now and is in a psych unit. I’ve been playing this ove and over. I think I’m in love!
Its really odd, our therapist is ok with anger. We arent used to it as at home we’re not really allowed to express anger in a healthy way. But our therapist Eileen encourages it. Last session she said that because us and her are in a relationship, it is only natural that we’ll probably rub each other up the wrong way from time to time. And believe me that is true. Last week we were mad at her because she said one thing, then she forgot what she’d said so she never got back to us when she said she would. Its really confusing because while we were very mad, part of us was like, well, its the weekend, why do we have any right to be mad, she has a life, a family, and we are not part of her outside life or family. But when we talked it out in session last Monday, she said she probably should have been more clear about what she intended to do. She didnt go off on us because we were mad. No. Instead she said “I’m glad you were able to say it to me”. That makes no sense but to be honest I’m glad we’re able to say it to her too. It feels good to have such an open relationship with our therapist.