> something we spoke abouot yesterday on the phone really has hit me hard. it is the thing you said about less support once we get out of the hospital. i feel like your going to abandon us, i dont know why i feel like that but it feels like your saying you cant cope or something. are we too much work? do we drain you? i’m so sorry if we do. i feel so bad for all the time i’ve bothered you. i know you said it was your choice to make yourself more available when we were in patient. i heard that and i understood it. but i dont know, i feel somehow rejected, afraid, scared, upset, hurt, like you dont want us once our crisis is over? I didnt hear anger in your voice when you were talking about less support. But I just feel so afraid. You and Dr Barry are myonly two safe outside attachment figures, I know I have my mentor at the basement club, and allanna my key worker in the day hospital, but I am not attached to them. Some of this stuff isnt coming from me either ok? its not all my fears, my irrationallity. some of it is other insiders stuff. Can you understand where i’m coming from? I understand you cant be on tap 24 hours a day nor would i expect you to be. But are you going to say you only want to hear from us during session? or that if something is really wrong we cant call? or that we cant email you any more? oh eileen please can you clarify some of this stuff because I’m going out of my mind with worry.
> Carol annne
Hi Carol anne
I just checked emails now I’m sorry that I scared u so much. I am not in any way saying I am leaving or unavailable there is nothing to b scared about. I am simply saying we will b negotiating/discussing contact between sessions so that it is healthy and doable we can talk about it again anyway..no need to worry