Therapy this week was intense. I did not have much time in the session as someone else inside needed the time so I let them have it. For now that particular insider doesnt want to say her name. She feels uncomfortable with people knowing she is so fragile and I need to respect that. When she’s ready I’m sure she will let us know. She’s not a child part though, she’s an adult. Basically the gist of the session was talking about big feelings, and trying to sit with those feelings. Eileen likened it to a bycycle, she told this insider that a wheel of a bike has a hub, which is the inner part, and a rim which is the outter part. She told her to sit in the hub, and watch things from there, to not go to the outter rim just yet. Then she had the insider describe how she felt from that vantage point. I think that was helpful. We had asked her if we could record the session too but she wasnt sure, saying she didnt know how she felt about that. So we didnt record it. When the insider was done I came out and talked a little to eileen about college, and about advocating for myself and for what I need. I used the word fight a lot, saying how I felt like I had to fight for every little thing. Eileen asked me if there was another word I could use, because fighting makes it sound like I’m in constant conflict. So in the end I used the word advocate. The session went by way too quickly. But eileen said we’d done great work and she felt a lot had been covered.